Lost in a daydream.

It's really not a good idea for me to stay up at night.

My mind is such a wild animal.

I have no idea why I suddenly thought about this, but in retrospect, I regret the choice I've made.

I can't undo it though. So I have no idea why can't I just snap out of it since all these overthinking is not gonna help me in any way.

You don't ever forgive yourself don't you? When you stop blaming yourself it's most probably because a long enough time has past & your brain has triaged it, & you no longer consciously think about it anymore. The blame could be rekindled though. Like on late nights, induced by sadness and solitude.

It feels better now that I've said it out. Back to work.